The Rub

I'm getting a lot done these days. Baking cookies, knitting hats, shopping for, and wrapping presents. I'm impressed with my ability to fill all the hours in the day. Truthfully though, I'm pretty lonely. More than I have been in a long time. Perhaps it's because my solitude is self-imposed. At the same time, the thought of being around anyone I already know makes me want to rip off my skin. The thought of being around someone new is so exhausting that I actually took a nap after thinking about it today. It's a stalemate. A stalemate of loneliness.

And of course, no one can know how lonely I really am. There's the rub.