Very Merry Unbirthday
I often wonder what you'd look like. Would you have dark curls and eyes like me, or be blond and fair like my family and your dad? You'd be tall, I'm sure. Would you be sweet and calm or would you be difficult, like I was at your age? You would be an Aries, just like my mom and brother. Would you be happy, even though your life wasn't planned for? How different would my life be if you were here now? I'm much ashamed to admit that I wonder if I would regret you, or feel robbed of the life of which I dreamed.
Even though I never met you, you changed my life more than anyone ever will. I'm ashamed to admit that I don't think of you every day anymore. I wish I could tell you that I was a better person; a stronger person. I wish I could tell you I were a less selfish person. I wish I could tell you that I did what was best for you, and believe that it wasn't because it was what was best for me too. But none of that would be true. All I can tell you is that I have to have faith that someday it'll be worth it.
A very merry unbirthday, to you. To you.
Even though I never met you, you changed my life more than anyone ever will. I'm ashamed to admit that I don't think of you every day anymore. I wish I could tell you that I was a better person; a stronger person. I wish I could tell you I were a less selfish person. I wish I could tell you that I did what was best for you, and believe that it wasn't because it was what was best for me too. But none of that would be true. All I can tell you is that I have to have faith that someday it'll be worth it.
A very merry unbirthday, to you. To you.
posted by The Husskateer at 9:48 PM
1 Comments:
I can't believe it's been a year. I am so sorry. As a man I can't appreciate what you went through. I don’t think you were selfish – just not in the right time , place and relationship to nurture a baby. I think some day you will be a good mommy.
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